Friday, July 20, 2007
Friday fun ‘ol quality waste of time stolen from Lola
Current mood:I wish I was playing Katamari Damacy
10 states you've been to:
1. Utah
2. Michigan
3. California
4. Washington
5. Oregon
6. Illinois
7. New York
8. Massachusetts
9. Arizona
10. Ohio
9 lasts
Last dollar spent: OJ to go with breakfast
Last beverage: OJ
Last phone call: D-Bro
Last bubble bath: Quite a while ago
Last time you cried: A few weeks ago
Last text msg received: Mel is off work
Last text msg sent: Telling Pat I haven't unpacked my wigs yet
Last birthday: Lindsey Darling's and I missed it, sorry, I still have a treat for you from P-Town.
8 "Have-you-ever's?"
Have you ever dated a best friend? Never really dated…
Have you ever stayed up and partied 'til the sun rose? Sure I have seen my fair share of ass-dawns
Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it? YES, yes I have.
Have you ever lost someone you loved? Yeah and I feel glum about it.
Have you ever been dumped? Yeah in several different ways…
Have you ever dumped a bf/gf? Sort of once…
Have you ever been out of the country? Mexico and Canada, but apparently I am going to Venice
Have you ever run away? nope
7 favorite (local) restaurants in NO particular order:
1. Samurai Sushi
2. Oasis (The Mediterranean, yummy)
3. Annette's Deli (I love her and that is the only place I can think of that sells French feta)
4. Squatters
5. Little America (late nights are best)
6. Cinegrill
7. Cafe Anh Hong (Dim Sum, extra yummy)
6 things you've done today:
1. Hit the snooze button too many times
2. Rode the "pristine" public transit to work
3. Sent some text messages
4. Dinked around on my space
5. Read and replied to work e-mail
6. Watered my bamboo plant
5 of your favorite things N0 PARTICULAR ORDER:
1. Bare feet on lush green grass
2. The sound between songs on a record
3. My furry man cat man
4. WATER: oceans, lakes, pools, RAIN!
5. Iced Peppermint Tea
4 people you can tell [almost] anything to in no order:
1. Merlot
2. Dr. Joe
3. D-Bro
4. Froderick
3 places you want to visit:
1. Europe
2. Japan
3. Netherlands
2 things you want to do before you die:
1. Make a living doing something I love
2. Travel all over the world
1 thing that you cannot live without
1. At the moment air conditioning!
"No pleasure, no rapture, no exquisite sin greater than central air." - Dogma
Currently playing:
Katamari Damacy
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Monday, July 23, 2007
It’s Monday is like Friday’s Quality Waste of Time
Current mood: restless
"50 Questions about ME!!"
Stolen from Brad 'from down the hall'
1. Do you smoke weed?
Only if I want to feel like I got hit in the face with a brick. I don't fully understand this about my chemistry, but smoking weed makes me feel like shit so it is just not my cup of tea.
2. Have you kissed somebody in the last week?
Yes.
3. Who's the last person that came to your house?
My bro.
4. Miss someone?
Almost always.
5. Is there anyone you would like to fight?
Yes, but I'd rather see Merlot tear him to shreds.
6. Do you like someone right now?
Yeah, kinda, sort, yeah.
7. Song playing?
Afternoon in Stereo- Urban Modernists
8. What are you doing tomorrow?
Celebrating Pie-in-Ear day by staying in bed all day long, and maybe eating cucumber sandies.
9. Do you know what tofu is?
Tofu is soy bean curd, it can taste pretty good or it can taste pretty bad. I usually want to play with it and eat it.
10. Have you ever eaten it?
Yeah. I had a really good marinated roasted piece with veggies a few weeks ago.
11. Do you want to go back to middle school?
NO! NOT IN A MILLION FUCKING YEARS AND NOT FOR ALL THE MONEY IN THE WORLD! Jr. High sucked a big BIG one. The only thing I miss are the Bishops and Merlot, but I still see her. I'd like to see Suzy and Leslie. We all had wonderful adventures, but not at school.
12. Have you ever watched the Britney Spears movie crossroads?
Nurp. I'm not sure I am even interested in it for the novelty value.
13. What did you do today?
Wake up, buy yogurt at the grocery, ride the bus to work, check e-mail, this…
14. Who did you ride in a car with last?
Me, myself, and I.
15. Are you tired?
Yes I am pretty sleepy, but I am excited for my day off tomorrow.
16. Who were you with last night?
Merlot and the comics at Mo's….oh and I got a fucking superb back rub from Heather!
17. Where is your mother right now?
At her house skipty-bopping around.
18. What color socks do you have on?
None, I am wearing sandals. I almost have potato foot too.
19. What color is the shirt you are wearing?
Blue with white pinstripes.
20. Are you a sexual predator?
Nope. I am only an armchair sexpot.
21. Do you think Barbie is a negative role model for young girls?
Yes and no. There are certainly worse things out there and in more then one case I have been more scared of the parents who hate Barbie so much, then I have of Barbie. Toys can just be toys as long as the living people around you try to set positive examples and support a nurturing and diverse environment.
23. Does your family own any boats?
Does a pewter Viking ship filled with candy count?
24. Have you ever kissed your cat(s)?
Of course! I LOVE my furry man cat man!
25. Where were you when 9/11 happened?
Sleeping, my mom work me up when she was leaving for work she had a portable TV under her arm and said something that I don't remember, she said to turn on the TV. I watched just enough to get some of the story and then I turned it off. I still have never really seen the footage of the planes hitting the towers. I read a lot of books and stopped watching TV or listening to the radio. When my head wasn't in the sand I read the paper and avoided looking at the pictures. [fuck you question 25, I don't like you]
26. How long does it take you to get ready to go out?
Depends, to work I can be out of the house in 30min. I like to dawdle, so maybe a good hour when all is aid and done, but I am pretty anal about being on time, so I have to have enough time to dawdle.
27. Have you been outside of the U.S.?
Canada and Mexico. I heard just a few weeks ago that I am going to Venice….news to me.
28. The last text you received on your mobile was from?
Lindsey Darling!
29. Last movie u watched?
Hot Fuzz
31. Do you wish at 11:11?
Not since I was in high school.
32. Do you wear contacts or glasses?
Nope, only for fun fun dress up time, and sunglasses because I work in a pit and the light hurts my nerdly eyes.
33. Next vacation you're going on?
Not sure yet. I just got back from two whirlwind trips. I'd like to go to Portland, but I'd also like to go to bed?
34. Do you play any instruments?
Not really. I do enjoy a nice round on the kazoo.
35. Do you have any piercings?
Nope, I've been thinking about it, but I am so lazy about maintainance.
36. Last person you hugged?
Heather…if she ever offers you simply can't turn down a back rub from her, she is incredible.
37. The last place you went to?
Work.
38.Who/What made you angry today?
My stupid shit ball neighbors parking in my parking space because I was out late last night so when I came home I had to do a 14 fucking point turn to get back out fo the drive way, they are total ass butts!
39. Do you download music?
Sometimes, mostly I listen to my Swedish lounge radio. There is some stuff I can find state side and downloading is the only option.
40. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
My bro, he is quite the jazz bo and crazy crap music master. He makes great music on the fly.
41. Do you love anyone?
Yes.
42. Have you ever bungee jumped?
Nope. I am curious, but there are a lot of other things I'd rather do first.
43. How many pets do you have?
2, my LOVE, my furry man cat man, and my fishy Sid 'Fishous'
44. Do you have an iPod?
No, they are pretty fucking overrated if you ask me. I have a quite nice mp3 player and it makes me happy.
45. Do you find yourself loved?
If I stop long enough to pay attention.
46. Has anyone you were close to you passed away recently?
Not too recently, but 2006 hangs around in my head like a bad dream.
47. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
The location isn't that weird, but it was the only time I woke up and didn't know where the fuck I was. That was the last time I went out into a tequila blizzard
48. What's the closest orange object to you?
My non-ipod quite nice mp3 player thing.
49. What is your natural hair color?
Auburn or something like that.
50. Where was your default picture taken?
In photoshop. It is a mish mash of a pic taken of Gomez in concert at Liquid Joe's, a beautiful platter of sushi, a medical model that I lust after, and a picture of me playing with so wind up teeth.
Currently listening:
Destination Lounge: Bali
By Various Artists
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Thursday, July 26, 2007
Quality Waste of Time from Merlot :)
Current mood:just ok
Stolen from Merlot
"200 fun facts 'cause I am bored"
200. My middle name is:
Elizabeth
199. I was born in:
The City of Salt
198. I am really:
Anxious and scared about some stuff right now.
197. My cell phone company is:
A big corporate monster, but I get much better service.
196. My eye color is:
Green, kinda Hazel
195. My shoe size is:
10 or 11 depending on the style
194. My ring size is:
7-10 depending on the finger
193. My height is:
5'6"
192. I am allergic to:
Puppies , a bunch of things in nature, and probably other things as well.
191. I was born:
In the seventies.
190. I am annoyed by:
A lot of things, right at the moment, I am annoying myself pretty well, and the general public isn't doing too bad of a job either.
189. Last book you read:
Typhoid Mary: an Urban Historical by Anthony Bourdain
188. My bed is:
One of the greatest places on earth.
187: One thing you hate about yourself:
That I hate about myself.
178. The perfect kiss:
Is just that, I suppose the technique etc. depends on the moment, lots of different things could be perfect.
177. The last three cd's I bought were:
Humm, I can't think….I am planning on picking up the Hot Fuzz Soundtrack, the new Fountains of Wayne album, and something good and loungy, maybe Rokshopp or Urban Modernists.
175. Are you living at home:
I live in my home, or I guess to be technical it is Rod's home, but I rent it.
174. Do you have any siblings:
Yurp, my jazz-bo Bro
173. Are your parents divorced:
Yurp
170. What did you do yesterday:
Worked, if you want to call it that, bought a key lime pie, celebrated a birthday, walked home in the rain, hung out with Merlot
:::I Believe In:::
142. Love at first sight:
No/Yes…
141. Luck:
'you take the good, you take the bad…'
140. Fate:
No/Yes…
139. Yourself:
As much as I hate myself, I am trapped in a paradox.
138. Aliens:
Yurp
137. Heaven:
In a sense
136. Hell:
If you think so
135. Ghosts:
In a sense
134. Horoscopes:
Yeah, I am totally hung up on stuff like that, it fits in pretty well with the magic eight ball collection
133. Soul mates:
Yeah, there are people that just match up, cut from the same cloth kind of thing.
:::Which is Better:::
129. Hugs or Kisses:
Hugs AND kisses!
128. Drunk or High:
Not at the moment, I'm keen on tipsy.
127. Phone or Online:
For what purpose?
126. Red heads or Black haired?
Red Hair is a beautiful sexy mutation that I can't get over.
125. Blondes or Brunettes:
Brunettes.
124. Hot or cold:
Cold like a meat locker!
123. Summer or winter:
Summer if I have a/c, a body of water, and lots of iced herbal tea.
Winter otherwise because I like looking at the snow and being cold.
122. Autumn or Spring:
Both are nice. I like whatever season rains the most.
121. Chocolate or vanilla:
Dark Chocolate
120. Night or Day:
Night, I am not totally functional any other time.
119. Oranges or Apples:
Oranges or tart green apples.
118. Curly or Straight hair:
Curly, yargh!
:::Here's What I Think About:::
116. Abortion:
Your body your right. None of my business.
115. Back stabbers:
Should find something better to do with their time.
114. Parents:
Are crazy, kooky, mysterious, and spooky, but I love them!
:::Last time I:::
103. Hugged someone:
Tuesday afternoon
102. Last time you ate?
Rio Grande Cafe
101. Saw someone I haven't seen in awhile:
Sunday night
100. Cried in front of someone?
Tuesday afternoon
:::MISC:::
90. Who is the dirtiest person you know:
Depends on what you mean by "dirty"…
89. Who makes you laugh the most:
I dunno I laugh at a lot of stuff, Merlot can always crack me up.
87. The last movie I saw:
Hot Fuzz!
82. What I don't understand is:
A lot
80. The most unsatisfactory answer I've ever received:
"Oh, they don't tell me anything….." When asking the flight attendant why the flight was delayed and they were seating baggage in the passenger seats.
76. Something I will really miss when I leave home is:
I already miss a lot of things, but you can't go back, so I do what I can to enjoy the memories.
75. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most:
For today….going home and going laying in my nice cool bed.
74. The thing im not looking forward to:
Going to the dentist.
73. Tomorrow:
Working, lunch with a friend, appreciating that it is Friday.
72. Today:
Field Trip to the Utah Historical Society, Lunch at the Rio Grande, pretending to work, drinking water.
71. Next Summer:
Don't know yet.
70. Next Weekend:
Relaxing, napping, maybe a movie, maybe a clandestine rondevue.
67. People call me:
e
62. The person who knows the most about me is:
I suppose it depends on the genere, but Merlot knows me, D-Bro, and Natti
60. The most difficult thing to do is:
Be honest no matter what.
59. I have gotten a speeding ticket:
Yes, I hate authority, it makes my skin crawl
*HAS ANYONE NOTICED THE NUMBERS ON THIS SURVEY ARE FUCKED?*
---à Yes the numbers on this survey ARE totally fucked.
60.My zodiac sign is:
Leo. I don't usually feel like a leo.
55. The first person i talked to today was:
RON!
54. First time you had a crush:
When I was a wee lass, on a boy named Sean. He did not in the least return my affections, but k'mon we were 5.
53. The one person who i can't hide things from:
I am a terrible liar, I can't hide anything from anybody, except my self.
52. Last time someone said something you were thinking:
Merlot, she hangs out in my mind on occasion, thas coo.
51. Right now I am talking to:
RON! on the google chat.
50. What is your dream job:
Crazy artist, who lives in a nice rainy place on top of a cool building in a yurt, with my furry man cat man, and a cranberry bog, and a goat. Traveling all over the world and being groovy.
49. Are you going to do that when you grow up?
I'll let you know when I get there, maybe both Wonder Woman and Spiderman.
48. I have/will get a job:
I have a job, it is a scary adult job with an almost office, personal phone line, and business cards
47. I have these pets:
Furry man cat man and fishy guy
46. I wish:
Yes I do.
45. The worst sound in the world:
Squeaky balloon sound
44. The person that makes me cry the most is:
Probably up in my head.
43. Best sound in the world:
A soft wisper in your ear from someone you love
39. Person[s] that makes you happy:
…making a list just wouldn't be fair
35. Florida or Hawaii:
Hawaii
33. My favorite piece of clothing:
Whatever is most comfortable
31. Last time I cried:
tuesday
30. My friends are:
Amazing people
29. My computer is:
Pretty useful, but sometimes scary and a pain in the ass
28. The school I go to is:
The place I works at
27. Last person I got mad at:
Totally myself
22. The all-time best movie is:
Too hard to pick, but I totally feel like watching Usual Suspects today.
21. The all-time best feeling in the world is:
Being held
17. I lose all respect for people who:
Do stupid hateful stuff
16. The movie I cried at was:
The last one….hummm, oh yeah Meet the Robinsons
14. TV shows you watch:
I still haven't plugged in my TV, so nothing at the moment really.
13. Favorite web site:
www.lounge-radio.com
12. I like/love:
The things that I do not dislike or hate.
11. The worst pain I was ever in was:
Grief
10. My favorite word is:
For a while it was Pooper, at the moment I suppose tentacle is a pretty good word
9. My room is:
Clean, but empty, it need me to actually move into it.
8. My favorite celebrity is:
Eddie Izzard!
5. My weakness is:
A lot of things.
4. What I like about the opposite sex is?
Some of the things that I like about people in general
3. Who broke your heart?
A few people, in different ways
2. One thing that makes you feel great is:
A good sleep
1. One person that you wish you could see right now:
Someone who would hold me tight
Currently playing:
Sony Playstation2 Guitar Mania Wireless V Guitar (Blue)
30 June 2010
July 2007 More of the same
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Walking Spanish Down the Hall
Current mood:22 Stone and Lonesome
I've got this sinking feeling of being given the bums rush in love. That’s a horrible fucking word; I really can't think what it means to me. I love froderick with all my heart, and my family god bless them even though it is complicated and they are crazy(not that I'm not), but I have these fucked up feelings...more then desire, not just lewd frenzy, genuine care and concern. Maybe I am having trouble separating them from my own feelings about myself... so much fear, so much uncertainty, so much self-loathing.
Does it come back to my Les Nessman tendencies as a kid, or that I just can't make up my mind about what side my bread is buttered on, is it that I will never be able to have that fucking space between my thighs when I stand up with my legs together (I know that sounds somewhat impossible, but if you have ever thought about it then you know what I am talking about).
My dream bear is just that, and maybe countless hours at the gym to look healthy, but really end up loosing 50lbs and still not looking healthy... why bother, I've felt better and I've felt worse and I've looked better and I've looked worse. Nothing has worked yet, when I was a little girl maybe nine or ten one of the kids in the neighborhood was yelling at me and teasing me, yes I was/am a big pussy and a sensitive kid, but nothing he said really bothered me until he said "you're so FAT!"
Wham! Not his fault, no ones fault I suppose, but shit like that hangs around, eats at me, and I let it. Crying because I want to be held, to be loved for who I am and then having to deal with those feelings and my stubborn ass nature. 'How did I get here?'
I love Abner Dean. I am constantly frustrated by my duality. If sleep is worth it I'll take some, if you think love is worth it I still have some.
corny and sleepy to the n-th
Currently reading:
Vagina Warriors
By Eve Ensler
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Monday, July 09, 2007
Money is the only option.
Current mood:Still 22 Stone
Being rich seems to be the solution, it probably isn't, but I'm in a shit pessimistic mood at the moment. I have a big stupid inflated head that seems to be the only thing that keeps me floating when I try to hang myself. I could be mad at John Hughes, but what would be the point, no one was ever coming, look at this glass I made it myself and it is so close to empty. I could go back to pity, but why throw stones into a dry lake...I think some people call that progress, maybe the most sense that this can make is to call it sorrow, I am not who I want, why would anyone else want me?
Currently watching:
Dead Man
Comment from Melissa Merlot: :( DUDE FUCK JOHN HUGHES!!! Look at what he did to redheads with a unnatural one! And you are really cool you have awesome taste in movies and tv shows and lots of interesting conversations. It is just hard to meet actually cool people when everyone just wants to be a socially acceptable hipster. I think I am really fun and I don't understand why no one likes me so sadly I can give no advice.
Walking Spanish Down the Hall
Current mood:22 Stone and Lonesome
I've got this sinking feeling of being given the bums rush in love. That’s a horrible fucking word; I really can't think what it means to me. I love froderick with all my heart, and my family god bless them even though it is complicated and they are crazy(not that I'm not), but I have these fucked up feelings...more then desire, not just lewd frenzy, genuine care and concern. Maybe I am having trouble separating them from my own feelings about myself... so much fear, so much uncertainty, so much self-loathing.
Does it come back to my Les Nessman tendencies as a kid, or that I just can't make up my mind about what side my bread is buttered on, is it that I will never be able to have that fucking space between my thighs when I stand up with my legs together (I know that sounds somewhat impossible, but if you have ever thought about it then you know what I am talking about).
My dream bear is just that, and maybe countless hours at the gym to look healthy, but really end up loosing 50lbs and still not looking healthy... why bother, I've felt better and I've felt worse and I've looked better and I've looked worse. Nothing has worked yet, when I was a little girl maybe nine or ten one of the kids in the neighborhood was yelling at me and teasing me, yes I was/am a big pussy and a sensitive kid, but nothing he said really bothered me until he said "you're so FAT!"
Wham! Not his fault, no ones fault I suppose, but shit like that hangs around, eats at me, and I let it. Crying because I want to be held, to be loved for who I am and then having to deal with those feelings and my stubborn ass nature. 'How did I get here?'
I love Abner Dean. I am constantly frustrated by my duality. If sleep is worth it I'll take some, if you think love is worth it I still have some.
corny and sleepy to the n-th
Currently reading:
Vagina Warriors
By Eve Ensler
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Monday, July 09, 2007
Money is the only option.
Current mood:Still 22 Stone
Being rich seems to be the solution, it probably isn't, but I'm in a shit pessimistic mood at the moment. I have a big stupid inflated head that seems to be the only thing that keeps me floating when I try to hang myself. I could be mad at John Hughes, but what would be the point, no one was ever coming, look at this glass I made it myself and it is so close to empty. I could go back to pity, but why throw stones into a dry lake...I think some people call that progress, maybe the most sense that this can make is to call it sorrow, I am not who I want, why would anyone else want me?
Currently watching:
Dead Man
Comment from Melissa Merlot: :( DUDE FUCK JOHN HUGHES!!! Look at what he did to redheads with a unnatural one! And you are really cool you have awesome taste in movies and tv shows and lots of interesting conversations. It is just hard to meet actually cool people when everyone just wants to be a socially acceptable hipster. I think I am really fun and I don't understand why no one likes me so sadly I can give no advice.
More of the More of the same, Myspace 2007
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Feeling a Bit Like Shit
Current mood: depressed
A Daily Om from www.dailyom.com
The Real Thing
Love Should Feel Good
Often in our lives, we fall prey to the idea of a thing rather than actually experiencing the thing itself. We see this at play in our love lives and in the love lives of our friends, our family, and even fictional characters. The conceptualizing, depiction, and pursuit of true love are multimillion-dollar industries in the modern world. However, very little of what is offered actually leads us to an authentic experience of love. Moreover, as we grasp for what we think we want and fail to find it, we may suffer and bring suffering to others. When this is the case, when we suffer more than we feel healed, we can be fairly certain that what we have found is not love but something else.
When we feel anxious, excited, nervous, and thrilled, we are probably experiencing romance, not love. Romance can be a lot of fun as long as we do not try to make too much of it. If we try to make more of it than it is, the romance then becomes painful. Romance may lead to love, but it may also fade without blossoming into anything more than a flirtation. If we cling to it and try to make it more, we might find ourselves pining for a fantasy, or worse, stuck in a relationship that was never meant to last.
Real love is identifiable by the way it makes us feel. Love should feel good. There is a peaceful quality to an authentic experience of love that penetrates to our core, touching a part of ourselves that has always been there. True love activates this inner being, filling us with warmth and light. An authentic experience of love does not ask us to look a certain way, drive a certain car, or have a certain job. It takes us as we are, no changes required. When people truly love us, their love for us awakens our love for ourselves. They remind us that what we seek outside of ourselves is a mirror image of the lover within. In this way, true love never makes us feel needy or lacking or anxious. Instead, true love empowers us with its implicit message that we are, always have been, and always will be, made of love
Currently listening:
Sailing the Seas of Cheese
By Primus
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Saturday, June 23, 2007
Out of Sync
Current mood:unwell
I'm at the Pasadena Sheraton in the closet that they call the "business center" trying to check in for my flight tomorrow. My body aches and I can't quite put my finger on how I feel. I'm going to have sushi with my aunt and uncle in a little while. I figured I should do something like this while I am here, since I can. The show is ok, a lot of fashion and beauty make-up specific stuff this year, not so much effects or creature work, more on that later I suppose. Even on foot with a map I couldn't find the Bispop Gallery so I'll have to visit it some other time. Did I mention that I really like honesty and sometimes I feel like a real dip and I also get myself in trouble in that respect with stupid ass text messages.
Currently reading:
Gracefully Insane: Life and Death Inside America's Premier Mental Hospital
By Alex Beam
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Monday, June 25, 2007
Its true philanthropy really is only for Paris Hilton.
Current mood:Not Paris Hilton
Life in essence is about sex or religion. I am not a religious person. Sex requires being attractive, being attractive requires being skinny. Philanthropy and being a good person are only activities to make beauty pageant contestants seem well rounded and make people feel better about watching them. Who wants the first pound of flesh?
Currently reading:
Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs: A Low Culture Manifesto
By Chuck Klosterman
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Monday, July 02, 2007
I smell like Charles Worthington and feel like Shite
Current mood:Shite Eating and Going Home
I'm stressed out, my vagina is broken, my pussy is being finicky, and I didn't get the MUTHER FUCKING COCK SUCKING GRANT!
Currently watching:
Falling Down
Feeling a Bit Like Shit
Current mood: depressed
A Daily Om from www.dailyom.com
The Real Thing
Love Should Feel Good
Often in our lives, we fall prey to the idea of a thing rather than actually experiencing the thing itself. We see this at play in our love lives and in the love lives of our friends, our family, and even fictional characters. The conceptualizing, depiction, and pursuit of true love are multimillion-dollar industries in the modern world. However, very little of what is offered actually leads us to an authentic experience of love. Moreover, as we grasp for what we think we want and fail to find it, we may suffer and bring suffering to others. When this is the case, when we suffer more than we feel healed, we can be fairly certain that what we have found is not love but something else.
When we feel anxious, excited, nervous, and thrilled, we are probably experiencing romance, not love. Romance can be a lot of fun as long as we do not try to make too much of it. If we try to make more of it than it is, the romance then becomes painful. Romance may lead to love, but it may also fade without blossoming into anything more than a flirtation. If we cling to it and try to make it more, we might find ourselves pining for a fantasy, or worse, stuck in a relationship that was never meant to last.
Real love is identifiable by the way it makes us feel. Love should feel good. There is a peaceful quality to an authentic experience of love that penetrates to our core, touching a part of ourselves that has always been there. True love activates this inner being, filling us with warmth and light. An authentic experience of love does not ask us to look a certain way, drive a certain car, or have a certain job. It takes us as we are, no changes required. When people truly love us, their love for us awakens our love for ourselves. They remind us that what we seek outside of ourselves is a mirror image of the lover within. In this way, true love never makes us feel needy or lacking or anxious. Instead, true love empowers us with its implicit message that we are, always have been, and always will be, made of love
Currently listening:
Sailing the Seas of Cheese
By Primus
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Saturday, June 23, 2007
Out of Sync
Current mood:unwell
I'm at the Pasadena Sheraton in the closet that they call the "business center" trying to check in for my flight tomorrow. My body aches and I can't quite put my finger on how I feel. I'm going to have sushi with my aunt and uncle in a little while. I figured I should do something like this while I am here, since I can. The show is ok, a lot of fashion and beauty make-up specific stuff this year, not so much effects or creature work, more on that later I suppose. Even on foot with a map I couldn't find the Bispop Gallery so I'll have to visit it some other time. Did I mention that I really like honesty and sometimes I feel like a real dip and I also get myself in trouble in that respect with stupid ass text messages.
Currently reading:
Gracefully Insane: Life and Death Inside America's Premier Mental Hospital
By Alex Beam
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Monday, June 25, 2007
Its true philanthropy really is only for Paris Hilton.
Current mood:Not Paris Hilton
Life in essence is about sex or religion. I am not a religious person. Sex requires being attractive, being attractive requires being skinny. Philanthropy and being a good person are only activities to make beauty pageant contestants seem well rounded and make people feel better about watching them. Who wants the first pound of flesh?
Currently reading:
Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs: A Low Culture Manifesto
By Chuck Klosterman
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Monday, July 02, 2007
I smell like Charles Worthington and feel like Shite
Current mood:Shite Eating and Going Home
I'm stressed out, my vagina is broken, my pussy is being finicky, and I didn't get the MUTHER FUCKING COCK SUCKING GRANT!
Currently watching:
Falling Down
More of the same, Myspace 2007
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Inconsiderate Crazy Crap and Bloated Sacks of Bubo with Fistulae
Current mood: cynical
I.
It's that moment when you say something that makes everything uncomfortable. Looking at a cut right after it has happened and watching the blood bead up and run down your leg before really knowing what to do. A hand just as it reaches the slack of your breast and fingers find their way under the taught elastic of your bra. Itch of a lost sliver coming back to the surface of the skin.
II.
I want to have space, a goat, and a big dog; to keep bees and maybe pigeons are these goals too lofty. Can dreams like this only happen in Canada? Damn my duality, I want to be a gypsy-nomad with a place to call home. A sweet bear in my bed each night, one that will hold me, touch my face, and tell me not so many stupid things, but lots of stories. One that can be wild and passionate with me; an unstoppable fire, but also lights for their own passion and knows how to share.
III.
Will you bang me in a bathroom stall and still buy me dinner? Introduce me to your friends? Finger me in the movies and still want me to meet your parents? Be unashamed by finger puppets during sex?
I've got a train to catch.
Currently reading:
A Clockwork Orange
By Anthony Burgess
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Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Patton Oswalt and another Quality Waste of Time
Current mood: blah
Patton Oswalt is surprisingly patient with the POINTLESS QUESTIONS, I however am not! Here are more quality wastes of time stolen from the defunct 'Splendid' e-zine and you guessed it patiently answered by Patton Oswalt.
1. You can choose to have one -- and only one -- super power. Other than gaining that power, you remain exactly the same as you are now. What super power would you pick, and why?
The power to teleport like Nightcrawler, or my standard FLAME ON!
2. What was your favorite day job, and why? If you hated them all, what was the best (meaning most interesting) way you ever quit a job?
Up to this point it has to be working at Afterschool (pre Little Big 'J' times) I only worked in the afternoon, I got to play games and eat snack and drive around with a van full of kids, and I never worked weekends. True I worked for peanuts, but I'd do it again if I was a millionaire super robot artist that lived in a hut.
3. We've all heard variations on the phrase "there are two kinds of people in the world... Those who (do or think something) and those who (do or think something else)". What are the two kinds of people in the world for you?
There are two kinds of people in the world…those who talk about shitting and those who shit.
4. If money/ambition/significant others/et cetera were all non-issues, where would you choose to live and why?
Vancouver, CA, Seattle, someplace coastal cool and rainy.
5. You've been given the money and resources to produce a movie biography of the most significant, influential person in your life. Who's it about, what's the story, and who plays the central character?
Woo that's a hard one…It would be neat to see a good flick about William S. Burroughs (Sean William Scott), or Amelia Airheart (Jessica Simpson). I wouldn't mind another bio pic about Ed Wood, but Johnny Dep did a great job. I guess I'm not really answering this question, but whatever. I'd love to see an interview with Vincent D'Onofrio(he was only 20 when he worked with Kubrick in Full Metal Jacket!), or Annie Sprinkle(She is just overall amazing!). I'm a pretty big time voyeur so I love to hear stories, watch bio pics, read autobiographies, etc. And after all this blathering I realized who it would be…A full blown life story of Nan Goldin, she is amazing artist and has lived an incredible life, totally her, and she could be played by I dunno maybe Chloe Webb or an unknown of some sort.
6. Summarize your driving ability in 2 words or less.
Benign & Mostly-conscious
7. Why do your hands smell like that?
I put too much vinegar on my sandwich and I am eating at my desk.
8. You've just entered a contest in which the prize is an MP3 player loaded with the complete, exhaustive recorded output of any artist you choose. You win. Who do you choose?
Martin Denny!
9. What are you carrying on your person -- in your pockets, purse, et cetera -- right now?
Pockets are empty, I have the key to my office clipped on my belt and my bag is full of office crap, a sketchbook, my wallet, and cell phone.
10. You're on tour, you're in an unfamiliar city, you haven't eaten in 24 hours, and due to some poor financial decisions, you have only a single unit of the local currency -- one dollar, one pound, or thereabouts. What do you eat?
Cheap something from a grocery store.
11. What was the last song you danced to? Who, if anyone, did you dance with?
I danced around my house yesterday to Robby Williams—Rude Box, by my self
12. When did you last make a mountain out of a molehill?
A few weeks ago and maybe last week-ish.
13. Post-Schwarzenegger, are there any high-profile people you'd like to see run for governor or other high office? Who and why?
Not really, anyone that I can think of who ran in Utah wouldn't win anyway.
14. Apart from cheeseburgers, what is the cornerstone of any nutritious breakfast?
Pork! I mean k'mon I am Hungarian and Polish what else would I want?!
15. You receive a series of e-mails stating that Grace Jones, Junior Brown, Missy Elliott, Ian MacKaye and Philip Glass are interested in a collaboration. How do you respond to each request? Yes, even if you're not a musician.
Grace Jones: Sure, how avant-garde. Junior Brown: I don't see our styles really meshing. Missy Elliott: Let's get our freak on! Ian McKaye: Hell yes! Philip Glass: Sure, I'm assuming it will really increase my snob street cred.
16. Have you ever seen a ghost? Or a dead body? Tell us about it.
Dead body: yes. I've been to my fair share of LDS viewings and I was watching TV the other day and some show just put up all these images of cadavers. I also went to the Museum of Science and Industry in Chicago to see the sections of the body (RAD) and I am planning a trip to the Washington DC medical museum. Ghost: no.
17. What was the last book you read and hated? Why did you hate it?
The Complete Copyright and Liability Handbook for Librarians and Educators …do I really have to explain why I hated it?
18. Let's assume that God is a DJ. What's on his play list right now?
Ladysmith Black Mambazo and Herb Alpert and His Tijuana Brass
19. Who was your favorite teacher in high school? Why?
Thom Tholen my art teacher. He was a bad ass and incredible artist.
20. What is your favorite Meg Ryan movie?
The Doors
21. What is your favorite "comfort food" when you're on tour?
Ginger ale on the plane ride and a good dirty breakfast from a greasy spoon
22. What essential item are you most likely to leave at home when you're heading out on tour?
My itinerary
23. What do you do about it?
Panic! Call my pop and have him read all the info to me over the phone or finally calm down and use the million dollar internet kiosk at the airport to look it up in my e-mail.
24. You wake up one morning and discover that you have dolphin telepathy. What do you do with it?
Hell yeah! I'm off to the coast bitches!
25. What wouldn't Jesus do?
Eat at Taco Bell.
26. What's the deal with those goddamn raccoons?
They were funny in The Great Outdoors, but now it is just getting played out. Oh yeah and one pissed on my brother and they usually have rabies.
27. What is the most awkward moment in which you have caught a person adjusting, scratching, or otherwise handling his or her own genitals?
I worked with this girl who said she had to go to the bathroom because her new clit piercing was really itching her and she needed to scratch it. Also there was someone there who was always trying to twist his penis off through his sweat pants.
28. Where do you think Osama Bin Laden is hiding...
Up Patton Oswalt's Ass
...And what would it take to get him to come out?
A stick of butter and some forceps
29. You're sitting in a pub when an errant dart from the games area strikes you in the leg. With the dart pointing out of your body, do you pull it out, shout for help or attack the jackass who hit you?
I pull it out and think to myself, what did I do now?! And I stare down at my leg wondering if I need to update my tetanus shot.
30. All of the old gods had really difficult names like Yog-Sothoth and Cthulu. Do you think they had a hard time getting laid because of it?
NO, they were fucking gods and had minions and shit. I'm sure they did just fine in the pussy department.
31. What is the strangest thing you've ever had for breakfast?
Cold Pork Sandwich
32. Which non-music related product (i.E. No instruments, microphones, etc.) would you most like to be a celebrity spokesperson for?
Coghlan's Bear Bell with Magnetic Silencer! Smartest thing EVER!
33. Describe the skankiest, sketchiest place -- whether it's someone's home or a hotel/motel room -- that you've stayed in while on tour.
There was this hotel in Colorado Springs. I don't quite remember the hotel being that bad, but it was old and crappy and we went to the only restaurant in walking distance which was this too pink sub shop that smelled like bleach. We had to have been the first customers, buying food anyway, in quite a while; I don't remember the food either just that the guy behind the counter was a wound up skinny little man with bloodshot eyes and yellow teeth. My father later lamented that that 'poor guy was really messed up on drugs'. I spent the rest of the trip worrying about him coming over to our hotel room.
34. If you had an army of super-intelligent lab mice to do your bidding, what evil deeds would you have them do?
Go places and just subtly move things around so that it never quite feels right. Ohh creepy. Perform secret contraception implantation on several people I know that don't need to be having any babies right now. Bring me the 7 secret herbs and spices form the Lehi Roller Mill. Rub my feet.
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Currently listening:
Werewolves and Lollipops
By Patton Oswalt
--
Friday, June 15, 2007
Friday's Quality Waste of Time---I'm going home to Central AIR!
Current mood: savage
Lola comes through for me after a bit of a dry spell with this thrilling stolen content...
The Girl survey - be truthful!
1. What color is your bra?
Gray…and not because it faded, it was gray when I bought it!
2. Do you prefer "sensitive boys" or "tough guys"?
I like someone who knows how to be genuine, so if they are really tough be tough or if they are really sensitive be sensitive, but I really dislike whiners.
3. Do you prefer blond or dark haired guys?
I have a real problem with red hair, did you know it is a mutation, GOD do I TOTALLY LOVE MUTANTS!
4. Have you broken anyone's heart?
Not that I am aware of.
5. Do you have a guy best friend?
Yurp. A lot of my close friend are and have been guys.
6. What do you want to be when you grow up?
A super star robot, artist, publisher who lives in a yurt on top of a building in Vancouver with my FURRY MAN CAT MAN, goat, bees, pigeons, and crazy garden.
7. Have you ever kissed two people in one night?
On New Years Eve, but not in a sexy way
8. Who was the last person you hugged?
Still Firm Handshake
9. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes.
10. Have you ever thought about having plastic surgery?
Yes, I am lame.
11. Have you ever wanted someone, but you knew you couldn't ?
FUCK YEAH! Some part of me delights in the forbidden.
12. Do you like your life?
I should, but I just mope and complain most of the time.
13. Do you shop at Hollister?
NO! In fact I believe that I can say I have never set foot in this place you call Hollister.
14. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
Never really had one so NO. (Yeah yeah, you disagree huh, well then NO, but if they did they would have to fucking keep him)
15. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
Yeah I sure have known some turds in my day
16. Do you forgive and forget?
I forgive them, but I never forgive myself. And I forget stuff, but not anything that might make me feel better, if it wasn't floating around in my head anymore.
17. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
Mostly boys…girls scare me, and I just don't get it most of the time…except for Merlot
18. How long have you had myspace?
I dunno for a while.
19. Have you ever skipped school? When?
Only once, I went to class and I was the only one who showed up so my teacher demanded that I sluff so he could go home. I definitely regret not dicking around more in highschool. Damn my stupid relationship with authority and my personal duality!
20. Has anyone ever cheated on you?
Never quite had anyone, but there was the one time where all I got was the NOT KNOWING and that was enough!
21. Have you ever cheated on someone?
Nope.
22. What is one of your biggest fears?
People
23. Has anyone close to you ever passed away?
yes
24. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
Yes
25. Do you believe in the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater"?
Isn't that was whats-his-face Johnny Greko says on that show, Cheaters?
26. What color are your underwear?
Magenta
27. Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out you were right?
I use hope like crack and neither have a good outcome.
28. Have you ever slept, in the same bed with one of your best guy friends?
Yes.
29. What song are you listening to right now?
Folk Song for Cello by Savath & Savalas
30. Do you ever wish you were famous?
Yeah, but only in that Eric Carle or Adam Carolla way. Then of course there are my rock star dreams, but more on that some other time.
31. Do you ever wish you were a boy?
Not really, I think I just spent a lot of time wishing that I could do what boys get to do without being a boy.
32. Do you ever hear a song that reminds you of an ex and you?
Fucking Sting
33. Do you think any men will open this just because it's labeled "The Female Survey"?
Unlikely because I'm not labeling it that way and this is my blog and not a bulletin. I do have some MEN who subscribe to my blog, but I dunno if they will bother to read it, feh whatever.
Currently watching:
Dogma
Inconsiderate Crazy Crap and Bloated Sacks of Bubo with Fistulae
Current mood: cynical
I.
It's that moment when you say something that makes everything uncomfortable. Looking at a cut right after it has happened and watching the blood bead up and run down your leg before really knowing what to do. A hand just as it reaches the slack of your breast and fingers find their way under the taught elastic of your bra. Itch of a lost sliver coming back to the surface of the skin.
II.
I want to have space, a goat, and a big dog; to keep bees and maybe pigeons are these goals too lofty. Can dreams like this only happen in Canada? Damn my duality, I want to be a gypsy-nomad with a place to call home. A sweet bear in my bed each night, one that will hold me, touch my face, and tell me not so many stupid things, but lots of stories. One that can be wild and passionate with me; an unstoppable fire, but also lights for their own passion and knows how to share.
III.
Will you bang me in a bathroom stall and still buy me dinner? Introduce me to your friends? Finger me in the movies and still want me to meet your parents? Be unashamed by finger puppets during sex?
I've got a train to catch.
Currently reading:
A Clockwork Orange
By Anthony Burgess
--
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Patton Oswalt and another Quality Waste of Time
Current mood: blah
Patton Oswalt is surprisingly patient with the POINTLESS QUESTIONS, I however am not! Here are more quality wastes of time stolen from the defunct 'Splendid' e-zine and you guessed it patiently answered by Patton Oswalt.
1. You can choose to have one -- and only one -- super power. Other than gaining that power, you remain exactly the same as you are now. What super power would you pick, and why?
The power to teleport like Nightcrawler, or my standard FLAME ON!
2. What was your favorite day job, and why? If you hated them all, what was the best (meaning most interesting) way you ever quit a job?
Up to this point it has to be working at Afterschool (pre Little Big 'J' times) I only worked in the afternoon, I got to play games and eat snack and drive around with a van full of kids, and I never worked weekends. True I worked for peanuts, but I'd do it again if I was a millionaire super robot artist that lived in a hut.
3. We've all heard variations on the phrase "there are two kinds of people in the world... Those who (do or think something) and those who (do or think something else)". What are the two kinds of people in the world for you?
There are two kinds of people in the world…those who talk about shitting and those who shit.
4. If money/ambition/significant others/et cetera were all non-issues, where would you choose to live and why?
Vancouver, CA, Seattle, someplace coastal cool and rainy.
5. You've been given the money and resources to produce a movie biography of the most significant, influential person in your life. Who's it about, what's the story, and who plays the central character?
Woo that's a hard one…It would be neat to see a good flick about William S. Burroughs (Sean William Scott), or Amelia Airheart (Jessica Simpson). I wouldn't mind another bio pic about Ed Wood, but Johnny Dep did a great job. I guess I'm not really answering this question, but whatever. I'd love to see an interview with Vincent D'Onofrio(he was only 20 when he worked with Kubrick in Full Metal Jacket!), or Annie Sprinkle(She is just overall amazing!). I'm a pretty big time voyeur so I love to hear stories, watch bio pics, read autobiographies, etc. And after all this blathering I realized who it would be…A full blown life story of Nan Goldin, she is amazing artist and has lived an incredible life, totally her, and she could be played by I dunno maybe Chloe Webb or an unknown of some sort.
6. Summarize your driving ability in 2 words or less.
Benign & Mostly-conscious
7. Why do your hands smell like that?
I put too much vinegar on my sandwich and I am eating at my desk.
8. You've just entered a contest in which the prize is an MP3 player loaded with the complete, exhaustive recorded output of any artist you choose. You win. Who do you choose?
Martin Denny!
9. What are you carrying on your person -- in your pockets, purse, et cetera -- right now?
Pockets are empty, I have the key to my office clipped on my belt and my bag is full of office crap, a sketchbook, my wallet, and cell phone.
10. You're on tour, you're in an unfamiliar city, you haven't eaten in 24 hours, and due to some poor financial decisions, you have only a single unit of the local currency -- one dollar, one pound, or thereabouts. What do you eat?
Cheap something from a grocery store.
11. What was the last song you danced to? Who, if anyone, did you dance with?
I danced around my house yesterday to Robby Williams—Rude Box, by my self
12. When did you last make a mountain out of a molehill?
A few weeks ago and maybe last week-ish.
13. Post-Schwarzenegger, are there any high-profile people you'd like to see run for governor or other high office? Who and why?
Not really, anyone that I can think of who ran in Utah wouldn't win anyway.
14. Apart from cheeseburgers, what is the cornerstone of any nutritious breakfast?
Pork! I mean k'mon I am Hungarian and Polish what else would I want?!
15. You receive a series of e-mails stating that Grace Jones, Junior Brown, Missy Elliott, Ian MacKaye and Philip Glass are interested in a collaboration. How do you respond to each request? Yes, even if you're not a musician.
Grace Jones: Sure, how avant-garde. Junior Brown: I don't see our styles really meshing. Missy Elliott: Let's get our freak on! Ian McKaye: Hell yes! Philip Glass: Sure, I'm assuming it will really increase my snob street cred.
16. Have you ever seen a ghost? Or a dead body? Tell us about it.
Dead body: yes. I've been to my fair share of LDS viewings and I was watching TV the other day and some show just put up all these images of cadavers. I also went to the Museum of Science and Industry in Chicago to see the sections of the body (RAD) and I am planning a trip to the Washington DC medical museum. Ghost: no.
17. What was the last book you read and hated? Why did you hate it?
The Complete Copyright and Liability Handbook for Librarians and Educators …do I really have to explain why I hated it?
18. Let's assume that God is a DJ. What's on his play list right now?
Ladysmith Black Mambazo and Herb Alpert and His Tijuana Brass
19. Who was your favorite teacher in high school? Why?
Thom Tholen my art teacher. He was a bad ass and incredible artist.
20. What is your favorite Meg Ryan movie?
The Doors
21. What is your favorite "comfort food" when you're on tour?
Ginger ale on the plane ride and a good dirty breakfast from a greasy spoon
22. What essential item are you most likely to leave at home when you're heading out on tour?
My itinerary
23. What do you do about it?
Panic! Call my pop and have him read all the info to me over the phone or finally calm down and use the million dollar internet kiosk at the airport to look it up in my e-mail.
24. You wake up one morning and discover that you have dolphin telepathy. What do you do with it?
Hell yeah! I'm off to the coast bitches!
25. What wouldn't Jesus do?
Eat at Taco Bell.
26. What's the deal with those goddamn raccoons?
They were funny in The Great Outdoors, but now it is just getting played out. Oh yeah and one pissed on my brother and they usually have rabies.
27. What is the most awkward moment in which you have caught a person adjusting, scratching, or otherwise handling his or her own genitals?
I worked with this girl who said she had to go to the bathroom because her new clit piercing was really itching her and she needed to scratch it. Also there was someone there who was always trying to twist his penis off through his sweat pants.
28. Where do you think Osama Bin Laden is hiding...
Up Patton Oswalt's Ass
...And what would it take to get him to come out?
A stick of butter and some forceps
29. You're sitting in a pub when an errant dart from the games area strikes you in the leg. With the dart pointing out of your body, do you pull it out, shout for help or attack the jackass who hit you?
I pull it out and think to myself, what did I do now?! And I stare down at my leg wondering if I need to update my tetanus shot.
30. All of the old gods had really difficult names like Yog-Sothoth and Cthulu. Do you think they had a hard time getting laid because of it?
NO, they were fucking gods and had minions and shit. I'm sure they did just fine in the pussy department.
31. What is the strangest thing you've ever had for breakfast?
Cold Pork Sandwich
32. Which non-music related product (i.E. No instruments, microphones, etc.) would you most like to be a celebrity spokesperson for?
Coghlan's Bear Bell with Magnetic Silencer! Smartest thing EVER!
33. Describe the skankiest, sketchiest place -- whether it's someone's home or a hotel/motel room -- that you've stayed in while on tour.
There was this hotel in Colorado Springs. I don't quite remember the hotel being that bad, but it was old and crappy and we went to the only restaurant in walking distance which was this too pink sub shop that smelled like bleach. We had to have been the first customers, buying food anyway, in quite a while; I don't remember the food either just that the guy behind the counter was a wound up skinny little man with bloodshot eyes and yellow teeth. My father later lamented that that 'poor guy was really messed up on drugs'. I spent the rest of the trip worrying about him coming over to our hotel room.
34. If you had an army of super-intelligent lab mice to do your bidding, what evil deeds would you have them do?
Go places and just subtly move things around so that it never quite feels right. Ohh creepy. Perform secret contraception implantation on several people I know that don't need to be having any babies right now. Bring me the 7 secret herbs and spices form the Lehi Roller Mill. Rub my feet.
· · · · · · ·
Currently listening:
Werewolves and Lollipops
By Patton Oswalt
--
Friday, June 15, 2007
Friday's Quality Waste of Time---I'm going home to Central AIR!
Current mood: savage
Lola comes through for me after a bit of a dry spell with this thrilling stolen content...
The Girl survey - be truthful!
1. What color is your bra?
Gray…and not because it faded, it was gray when I bought it!
2. Do you prefer "sensitive boys" or "tough guys"?
I like someone who knows how to be genuine, so if they are really tough be tough or if they are really sensitive be sensitive, but I really dislike whiners.
3. Do you prefer blond or dark haired guys?
I have a real problem with red hair, did you know it is a mutation, GOD do I TOTALLY LOVE MUTANTS!
4. Have you broken anyone's heart?
Not that I am aware of.
5. Do you have a guy best friend?
Yurp. A lot of my close friend are and have been guys.
6. What do you want to be when you grow up?
A super star robot, artist, publisher who lives in a yurt on top of a building in Vancouver with my FURRY MAN CAT MAN, goat, bees, pigeons, and crazy garden.
7. Have you ever kissed two people in one night?
On New Years Eve, but not in a sexy way
8. Who was the last person you hugged?
Still Firm Handshake
9. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes.
10. Have you ever thought about having plastic surgery?
Yes, I am lame.
11. Have you ever wanted someone, but you knew you couldn't ?
FUCK YEAH! Some part of me delights in the forbidden.
12. Do you like your life?
I should, but I just mope and complain most of the time.
13. Do you shop at Hollister?
NO! In fact I believe that I can say I have never set foot in this place you call Hollister.
14. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
Never really had one so NO. (Yeah yeah, you disagree huh, well then NO, but if they did they would have to fucking keep him)
15. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
Yeah I sure have known some turds in my day
16. Do you forgive and forget?
I forgive them, but I never forgive myself. And I forget stuff, but not anything that might make me feel better, if it wasn't floating around in my head anymore.
17. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
Mostly boys…girls scare me, and I just don't get it most of the time…except for Merlot
18. How long have you had myspace?
I dunno for a while.
19. Have you ever skipped school? When?
Only once, I went to class and I was the only one who showed up so my teacher demanded that I sluff so he could go home. I definitely regret not dicking around more in highschool. Damn my stupid relationship with authority and my personal duality!
20. Has anyone ever cheated on you?
Never quite had anyone, but there was the one time where all I got was the NOT KNOWING and that was enough!
21. Have you ever cheated on someone?
Nope.
22. What is one of your biggest fears?
People
23. Has anyone close to you ever passed away?
yes
24. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
Yes
25. Do you believe in the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater"?
Isn't that was whats-his-face Johnny Greko says on that show, Cheaters?
26. What color are your underwear?
Magenta
27. Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out you were right?
I use hope like crack and neither have a good outcome.
28. Have you ever slept, in the same bed with one of your best guy friends?
Yes.
29. What song are you listening to right now?
Folk Song for Cello by Savath & Savalas
30. Do you ever wish you were famous?
Yeah, but only in that Eric Carle or Adam Carolla way. Then of course there are my rock star dreams, but more on that some other time.
31. Do you ever wish you were a boy?
Not really, I think I just spent a lot of time wishing that I could do what boys get to do without being a boy.
32. Do you ever hear a song that reminds you of an ex and you?
Fucking Sting
33. Do you think any men will open this just because it's labeled "The Female Survey"?
Unlikely because I'm not labeling it that way and this is my blog and not a bulletin. I do have some MEN who subscribe to my blog, but I dunno if they will bother to read it, feh whatever.
Currently watching:
Dogma
A return to resolving loose etherial ends the Myspace Blog of 2007
Monday, June 04, 2007
A HOT as fuck waste of time after 1 hour of sleep.
Current mood:BROACHING IN MY OWN SKIN!!!
Stolen without consideration yet again from the now defunct Splendid e-zine POINTLESS QUESTIONS originally answered by the Dials' Emily Dennison
Various religions suggest that there's a "special" hell for certain sins (hurting children, being cruel to animals, using the word "blog" as a verb, etc). Who else needs a "special" hell?
Special hell? Humm, is that like the special peoples club? I dunno I'm not really much for hell and now all I can hear in my head is the pounding of the surf drum from 'Welcome to the Dollhouse' Oh the pleasure of an unfinished orgasm.
Due to poor financial planning, you've got to eat for an entire week on only US$10. What do you buy, food-wise?
A bunch of those scary two for a buck pizza kind of things that you can put in the microwave even though the box tells you not too
What's the biggest misconception that people have about you?
A lot of people that I used to work with were always so shocked to see me drink beer and hear me swear. I think that always really bothered me because we worked with kids so it is not like I was going to whip out a cold brew while I was driving a van full of first graders and start complaining about all the god damn cock ass shit that fucks this world up, BALLS! If I had a cock I would whip it out and slap them with it!
What's the worst injury you've ever suffered for your art (i.e. second degree burns from shorted-out mic, broken leg from failed stage dive)? Tell us about it.
I have gotten a lot of cuts and burns over the years, still no stitches or parts chopped off with an x-acto knife so I do have a leg up on some. I would say the top two were one: when I cut my leg on a piece of pipe and it was like a fucking apple corer and I had this fucked up flap of skin flopping all over the place (that time I probably could have used stitches, but I just taped it together and used liquid bandage); two: I was making scary death salsa and I cut up all these hot as fuck chilies and then I touched my face, I was burning and bright ass red for a week, but my roommate did really enjoy the salsa.
You've got unlimited funding and technical expertise to make an IMAX movie on the topic of your choice. What do you choose? Describe the obligatory vertigo-inducing camera shot that makes the entire audience clutch their stomachs.
The undersea jelly fish experience! Lots of undulating semi transparent stuff pushing and flowing through the water, plenty of opportunities for disorientating motion shots. Can it be in IMAX and 3-D?
You've locked your car keys inside the tour van and don't have AAA. How do you get the door open?
I take the bus to wherever it is that I need to be and call my brother who has my spare keys and at some later date he drives me back to my car and unlocks it. If I was on tour in a shitty van I might just break the window, or if it is like any of the shitty vans that I have known, one of the doors never really locks anyway.
Ever find useful stuff in the garbage? Describe your best-ever dumpster find and how you used it.
Best garbage find ever was a giant scenic painting of a tropical sunset, an original, just sitting on top of some guys curbside trash pile. I have it hanging prominently in my living room. Also I found a complete wooden croquet set and a vintage cruiser bike that just needed new tires, but was in good shape otherwise.
If you were a 50ft high Tyrannosaurus Rex, would you use your powers for good or evil? Who would you go after first?
It depends on the audience if I am doing good or not, I imagine regardless people would eventually get tired of me and I would be sent to live on Monster Island and get bossed around by Godzilla and Rodan.
You've decided to write a musical. What's it about and who's the star?
Well it is more my brother's dream then mine, but I do think it would be a hell of a musical…..HOBOPOLIS! The Hobo Opera! Staring Cal Rampton as J.G. Pennypacker with Bea Arthur as the alluring Hobo Queen.
What's your favorite board game? Why do you like it?
It's not really a board game, but I like playing surrealist games. Come play sometime and you'll see why :)
Everyone likes at least one cheesy/crappy song that totally kills their cred. What's yours?
Despite the fact that I have dropped in many peoples estimation for enjoying the occasional Madonna song, my cheesy crappy song of choice has got to be "We Built This City (On Rock and Roll) by Jefferson Starship" I love that song!
The standard touring vehicle is always a beat-up van. What has been the worst/weirdest method of conveyance you've had to use on a tour?
I once had a friend try and talk me into going on a handcart pioneer trek from nowhere to nowhere. I declined. Oh and the horrid puddle jumper commuter plane from Chicago to Detroit at 3:30 in the morning
Will it ever truly be possible to "rock the vote", or will apathy, indifference and laziness always triumph over activism?
I'm not sure if I should care that much about 'rockin the vote' I feel too old for that slogan now and frankly all the people young enough to fit into that demographic keep turning out to be scary right wing republican nut jobs and I'd rather they didn't rock anything.
You want to cry? I'll give you something to cry about. What would you like to cry about?
Sure, I could use a good cry. I really haven't done it in a while. I feel pretty numb most of the time. Physical pain doesn't usually do it to me unless it comes along with something else, I'd rather not cry about the something else again. I suppose if I could just have a good girly menstrual cry that would work for me.
If you could watch one historical event re-enacted by a cast of chimpanzees, which one would it be, and why?
I feel like I should say the civil war, but I am thinking a more pleasurable experience for me would be a party at the height of Andy Warhol's Factory in NYC. Just imagine the surly Lou Reed chimp.
How long after an unopened gallon of milk's "use-by" date has passed would you be willing to use it?
Until it tastes bad to me. Mostly I drink rice milk and it always tastes kind of bad.
What is the most unusual item you've thrown up on/in?
I was at a house that was being remodeled and I found the bathroom and I puked, but then I thought it would be a keen idea to go and look around at the unfinished part of the house and I ended up in the basement somewhere and I puked into a hole in the floor that I decided might be some kind of drain.
Do you prefer the term "underwear" or "underpants"? What does that say about you?
I am all about the underpants. That is after all where you do or not to put them so it seems fitting, I also like saying tighttie whities, boxers, panties, or Y fronts depending on the style and situation.
You've been asked to submit an anecdote or "tip" to a book called Everything I Need to Know About Life I Learned On Tour With My Band. What do you tell them?
I don't have a band nor do I tour with them, but I have gone on a road trip or two in my time. Lesson: keep your dick clean and your stick on the ice!
What basic freedoms are you prepared to give up in exchange for you and your family's safety?
I don't fucking know there are just too many variables in that question.
Due to a breakthrough in technology, it's possible to learn any skill, no matter how complex, pretty much instantly, by uploading the information directly into your brain (yes, like in The Matrix). Unfortunately, you can only do it once. What skill would you learn, and why?
Lame answer…zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance…actual answer…humm definitely awesome skills with my hands and something really useful.
A long-lost possession has turned up on EBay, and you're prepared to pay much more than it's worth just to finally get it back. What is it? Why is it worth so much to you?
The 'Mr. Merlin' metal lunch box and thermos that my mom gave away!
Right this very second, what are you most looking forward to, and why?
Taking a NAP! It is hot as hell and I am tired as fuck (sadly not from fucking) but luck be a lady, due to HVAC issues my job is closing today at noon and will not re-open until Wednesday [Happy Happy Joy JOY! Happy Happy Joy JOY! Happy Happy Joy JOY, JOY!]
Currently listening:
Artifact
By Sound Tribe Sector 9
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Wednesday, June 06, 2007
More coming about my Campaign Slogan
Current mood: sleepy
Callously stolen from the defunct e-zine 'Splendid' POINTLESS QUESTIONS originally answered by NOFX's El Hefe
1. What is your least favorite article of clothing, and why?
Right now shirts because someone out there seems to think that fat girls are wide not long so all the shirts I try on don't even cover my navel, WHAT THE FUCK?!
2. What's so funny about peace, love and understanding?
That so many douche bags talk about it, but they don't take any fucking action and that there are plenty of people out there preaching a doctrine allegedly based on peace, love, and understanding and they are the first one to show up on the front lines and kick you when you are down, again… WHAT THE FUCK?!
3. If you could remove 20ccs of fat from one part of your body and inject it into another, where would the fat come from/go to?
Humm…being a Hungarian I have no ass, but I am not really that interested in putting fat in my ass, I really have to think about this one…maybe from someplace weird like under my arm and inject it into the top of my foot? Geeze I dunno.
4. What three essential accessories would be in your dream tour van/vehicle?
A fucking great sound system, zub-zero air-conditioning, and something crazy like an endless pool or a monkey butler.
5. Which is more frightening: a venue full of people who don't like your music, or a room full of two-year-olds? Why?
I don't have a band, but I have been involved in shows of one kind or another and I have also already been in a room full of two-year-olds. Based on how much of a total people pleaser I am I have to choose the two-year-olds they can make a pretty good audience, they enjoy repeats, the poop isn't that big of a deal, and sooner or later they want a snack and to take a nap.
6. Name three activities that would be more interesting/entertaining/enjoyable with the addition of monkeys.
Karaoke, reality television (except for Survivor), and strip clubs.
7. What's the best venue you've ever played? What's the worst? Why?
I've answered this previously and since I am not in a band I don't have much to say. I can say that the black box theater at SLCC South campus was the worst to work on a show in and the theater at Westminster was the best, it's cat walk is fucking swank…I could have lived up there.
8. What was the last thing you watched on television? How did you like it?
CSI, it was the original one so I enjoyed it as usual and it was a particularly good episode, season finale season 3 I think.
9. Describe your dream vacation.
Eating fresh octopus in Korea at an open air fish market and then traveling all over the world, I think I elaborate on this in other previous blogs, if not then it is sure to come up when I get back to the topic of my breasts, etc.
10. Does everyone need to own a computer? Why or why not?
I don't care, they should have access if they want it, but who am I to tell the world that every-fucking-body needs a computer or not… "Who's the boss? Tony Danza? I don't think so!"
11. What activities (or whatever) are currently illegal, but in your opinion shouldn't be? What activities *are* legal, but should be outlawed?
Humm, another head scratcher, I am so uncomfortable with authority that I'd rather just avoid it…I suppose that reform on immigration laws and fair wages would be nice, sorting out the whole equal rights thing wouldn't hurt either…things to be outlawed: Metallica, any beverage that looks too much like piss or any other bodily fluid (blood can be debated, what with the whole blue to red business, also in that case it is more of a viscosity issue), and Helen Hunt!
12. Who should be the leader of the free world?
I dunno, I think Steve Martin might do an alright job. Maybe someone like Jello Biafra or Henry Rollins as advisers and Steven Colbert and Jon Stewart for good measure.
13. You have an eight-hour trip to your next gig. You're not driving, and you're not sleepy. You have the option of reading a book, listening to an album, watching a movie or playing a video game. Which do you choose? And what is the book/album/movie/game in question?
I get car sick SO easily! I would have to be listening to an album…my ultimate road trip music…old R.E.M. like Reckoning or Dead Letter Office, definitely something by Art Pepper…Smack Up, GOMEZ…Liquid Skin, if I could I'd probably just listen to my favorite Swedish lounge radio, almost enough zen that I could find my way to getting sleepy, ahh nothing like a good road nap (it's a skill I'd like to perfect).
14. What was the best live rock show you ever saw?
Top three, in chronological order…BLUR at St. Andrews Hall in Detroit, GOMEZ especially the show at DV8, and George Clinton and Parliament Funkadellic…they played for fucking 5 hours it was amazing!
15. Scientists have suggested that trainspotting (the hobby of obsessively traveling rail lines, watching trains, cataloging engine numbers, etc.) is a form of autism. What other so-called "hobbies" might actually be deep-seated psychological disorders?
Most if not everything I do…and if it is not something that I do then it is something that I am inexplicably attracted to like enigmas and sociopaths.
16. You're in an elevator with Mariah Carey, Marilyn Manson and George W. Bush. The elevator becomes trapped between floors. What happens next?
A keg appears and we start playing quarters.
17. You've been given the opportunity to play -- all expenses paid -- in a foreign country that bands don't normally get to visit. You get to pick the country. Where do you go?
Umm to make art…because again I'm not in a band, but these are better questions then any other random place on the internet…I'd want to go to CUBA!
18. What food item do you always eat, even though you shouldn't? And why shouldn't you be eating it?
It changes depending on a lot of things…and anything that I found on the floor…because I found it on the floor.
19. Why are frogs amusing?
Been over this before, see picture [now deleted] or previous blog for additional details.
20. Your favorite broken-up band is going to reunite for one show only at the venue of your choice (yes, we know this is implausible. Who cares?). Who's the band, and what's the venue?
Does this include resurrecting the dead? If so I would love to see Morphine, if not Soul Coughing, both shows at the place that is now Halo back when it was an awesome all ages punk dive.
21. Is the Internet destroying the English language?
Could be? I'd say more likely the text message and a need for speed has its hand in the mix, then just general dinkyness.
22. Several US states have adopted "three strikes and you're out" laws, which basically mean that after you're found guilty of three felonies, you're imprisoned for life. How do you feel about that? Is it effective lawmaking, or needlessly harsh?
Nothing like wasting money, I dunno shit like this gets me really agitated because I'd rather not even have to answer that question. If the funding and support that goes into the prison system was applied to community outreach and education programs we might not need so fucking much aggressive control money to keep the frightened upper middle class comfortable in their SUV's when they drive downtown! I know that I am over simplifying , but this really gets my hackles up.
Currently reading:
Tuesday
By David Wiesner
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Saturday, June 09, 2007
Living the high life.
Current mood:crapulent
Should I be counting at this point…yes folks it's true we are approaching an epoch almost a year of no *hoo hoo* in my life self inflicted or otherwise.
"We're not sure how long she has been in there, but our sources tell us that she has been wallowing in her own crapulence for almost 219 days, close friends say that is one of her longest crapulence benders coming just days after she was scheduled to release her new campaign slogan…"
"Her publicist refuses to comment, but the news networks are reporting that someone close to her has leaked the slogan and we here at CNN will be the first to reveal it… 'Fuck till I'm Thin'…there you have it folks, we expect to see that catch on faster then 'where's the beef'…"
I like breasts; I like my breasts they are kind of like soft hams. Man do some days just suck.
Currently playing:
Law & Order: Criminal Intent
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Monday, June 11, 2007
Who was your last quality waste of time
Current mood: lonely
Picked up from GT 'who was your last'
Blogged because I don't really post bulletins.
Body: Rule #1:
If you open this you GOTTA take it.(Or leave it, I don't care)
Rule # 2:
You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone
messages you and asks (Sure, fine, whatever, no one cares anyway, boo hoo hoo)
Rule #3:
Only answer True or False (Brake the rules, subvert the dominant paradigm, or don't)
Q: Kissed someone on your top friends?: TRUE
Q: Been arrested?: FALSE
Q: Kissed someone you didn't like? TRUE
Q: You like someone?: I'm trying.
Q: Held a snake?: TRUE
Q: Been suspended from school?: FALSE
Q: Been fired from a job?: Sort of.
Q: Sang karaoke?: TRUE
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?: TRUE
Q: Laughed until you started crying?: TRUE
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue? TRUE
Q: Kissed in the rain?: I wish.
Q: Sang in the shower?: TRUE
Q: Sat on a roof top?: FALSE
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?: FALSE
Q. Broken a bone?: FALSE
Q: Shaved your head?: FALSE
Q: Played a prank on someone?: TRUE
Q: Had/have a gym membership?: TRUE
Q: Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry?: FALSE
Q: Shot a gun?: TRUE
Q: Donated Blood?: FALSE
Q: Had your heart broken?: TRUE
Q: Broken someone's heart?: I dunno.
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LAST PERSON....
1. You hung out with? Merlot
2. last person you texted? Merlot
3. last person you were in a car with? Merlot
4. Went to the movies with? Natti
5. Went to the mall with? I don't remember that last time I went to a mall
6. You talked to on the phone?: D
7. Made you laugh?: Merlot
8. You hugged?: Firm Handshake
9. You cried with? Dr. Joe
WOULD YOU RATHER...?
1. Love or be loved? Love AND be loved.
2. Be serious or be funny?: Silly, kooky, funny.
3. Drink whole or skim milk? Rice Milk
4. Die in a fire or get shot?: Tea and Cake?
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ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...
1. Sun or moon?: MOON
2. Winter or Fall?: FALL
3. Left or right?: LEFT
4. Sunny or rainy?: RAINY
6. Where do you live? SALT LAKE CITY
8. Do you want to get married?: I dunno.
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: TWRIL
10. Do You Cook? Sometimes.
11. Current mood?: Lonely and Disoriented.
IN THE LAST 72 HOURS HAVE YOU...
1. Kissed someone?: NO
2. Sang?: YES
3. Been hugged?: YES
4. Cried? Only from laughing.
5. Like someone you can't have? Kind of.
Repost this as, "who was your last" (or don't)
Currently reading:
One Fish Two Fish Red Fish Blue Fish (I Can Read It All by Myself Beginner Books)
By Dr. Seuss
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Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Don't LIE this is a Quality Waste of Time
Current mood:Fuck it, Kill it--There are crumbs on my desk.
Blissfully stolen from GT (my new ether best friend because he posts something like this almost everyday)
Don't Lie Survey
EIGHT Lasts
1. Last cigarette: at Merlots party
2. Last beverage: Water
3. Last phone call: Natti
4. Last text message: Natti
5. Last CD played: Gomez-Split the Difference
6. Last bubble bath: a few months ago.
7. Last time you cried: Sunday, but only from laughing so hard.
8. Last meal: PB&J and orange slices
EIGHT Have You's
1. Have you ever dated someone twice? Kinda, but not really.
2. Have you ever been cheated on? I don't know.
4. Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it? YES!
5. Have you ever fallen in love? yes
6. Have you ever lost someone? yes
7. Have you ever been depressed? Whatdaya think?! (ooch and sarcastic too)
8. Have you ever been drunk and thrown up? Yes, yes I have.
Name SIX things you did in the past three days
1. Dicked around on Myspace
2. Went to CPR&AED Training
3. Saw a local Comedy Show
4. Watched the Tony Awards
5. Went swimming
6. Hung around with Merlot
List THREE people you can tell pretty much anything to
1. Merlot
2. D
3. Dr. Joe
List THREE favorite colors
1. ORANGE
2. red
3. yellow
List TWO things you want to do before you die
1.) Travel all over the world
2.) Fuck A LOT!
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF……
1. Bush? Tasty
2. Gay Marriage? Is a civil right
4. Straight, Gay, Bi? I don't fucking know, that may be part of my problem.
5. Do you have a crush? Sort of…
6. Who is the best hugger that you know? Michelle and my other Monday night friends
7. Do you believe in love at first sight? No/yes/kind of
8. Is there something you want to tell someone? Probably
9. What brand of shirt are you wearing? I dunno I bought it at a thrift store and I am too lazy to look at the tag while I am wearing it.
10. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? YES!
11. Do you have a "thing" for anyone on your top friend? Used to, kinda
12.HOW MANY people on your top friends? 24
13. How many kids do you want to have? I used to have 189 and that was pretty much enough for me. I am excited about being a crazy aunt.
14. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Crazy, but good.
15. Do you wanna change your name? Nah, I'm good with what I've got.
16. What did you do for your last birthday? Is it bad to say I don't remember…and not in that woo hoo fun 'I don't remember' kind of way
17. What time did you wake up today? 6:15AM
18. What were you doing at midnight last night? Trying to sleep.
19. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: Fuck it and Kill it, and finishing moving into my new place.
20. Last time you saw your dad? This morning, he made me the PB&J Sandie
21. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself: loathing
22. Which hand do you like better? left
23. What are you listening to right now? Swedish Lounge Radio
24. Have you ever talked to Tom? I have talked to people named Tom
25. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? I think.
26. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? YES because I am a BIG jerk!
27. Least favorite month? Depends, last year April was really shitty, and I'm not a big fan of extra hot days, but my birthday is in August so I can't hate that month, maybe July just for the temp and pomp and circumstance around pie in ear day.
28. What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? A t-shirt from my Dad because I am still living out of a suitcase kind of.
29. Who's getting on your nerves right now? A Lot of people.
30. Most visited webpage? Marriott Library homepage and Juxtapoz
31. Would you help your best friend fight if he/she is losing? Maybe, depends on what the fight is about, I am pretty much a pacifist, but I would stand there and take the blows for them.
32. Coke or Pepsi? COKE
33. What's the worst day of your life? A bunch of times last year
34. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? NO
35. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? YES!
If you answered honestly to all these, repost as:
Don't Lie Survey (or don't, like I said I don't care)
Currently reading:
From Hell
By Alan Moore
A HOT as fuck waste of time after 1 hour of sleep.
Current mood:BROACHING IN MY OWN SKIN!!!
Stolen without consideration yet again from the now defunct Splendid e-zine POINTLESS QUESTIONS originally answered by the Dials' Emily Dennison
Various religions suggest that there's a "special" hell for certain sins (hurting children, being cruel to animals, using the word "blog" as a verb, etc). Who else needs a "special" hell?
Special hell? Humm, is that like the special peoples club? I dunno I'm not really much for hell and now all I can hear in my head is the pounding of the surf drum from 'Welcome to the Dollhouse' Oh the pleasure of an unfinished orgasm.
Due to poor financial planning, you've got to eat for an entire week on only US$10. What do you buy, food-wise?
A bunch of those scary two for a buck pizza kind of things that you can put in the microwave even though the box tells you not too
What's the biggest misconception that people have about you?
A lot of people that I used to work with were always so shocked to see me drink beer and hear me swear. I think that always really bothered me because we worked with kids so it is not like I was going to whip out a cold brew while I was driving a van full of first graders and start complaining about all the god damn cock ass shit that fucks this world up, BALLS! If I had a cock I would whip it out and slap them with it!
What's the worst injury you've ever suffered for your art (i.e. second degree burns from shorted-out mic, broken leg from failed stage dive)? Tell us about it.
I have gotten a lot of cuts and burns over the years, still no stitches or parts chopped off with an x-acto knife so I do have a leg up on some. I would say the top two were one: when I cut my leg on a piece of pipe and it was like a fucking apple corer and I had this fucked up flap of skin flopping all over the place (that time I probably could have used stitches, but I just taped it together and used liquid bandage); two: I was making scary death salsa and I cut up all these hot as fuck chilies and then I touched my face, I was burning and bright ass red for a week, but my roommate did really enjoy the salsa.
You've got unlimited funding and technical expertise to make an IMAX movie on the topic of your choice. What do you choose? Describe the obligatory vertigo-inducing camera shot that makes the entire audience clutch their stomachs.
The undersea jelly fish experience! Lots of undulating semi transparent stuff pushing and flowing through the water, plenty of opportunities for disorientating motion shots. Can it be in IMAX and 3-D?
You've locked your car keys inside the tour van and don't have AAA. How do you get the door open?
I take the bus to wherever it is that I need to be and call my brother who has my spare keys and at some later date he drives me back to my car and unlocks it. If I was on tour in a shitty van I might just break the window, or if it is like any of the shitty vans that I have known, one of the doors never really locks anyway.
Ever find useful stuff in the garbage? Describe your best-ever dumpster find and how you used it.
Best garbage find ever was a giant scenic painting of a tropical sunset, an original, just sitting on top of some guys curbside trash pile. I have it hanging prominently in my living room. Also I found a complete wooden croquet set and a vintage cruiser bike that just needed new tires, but was in good shape otherwise.
If you were a 50ft high Tyrannosaurus Rex, would you use your powers for good or evil? Who would you go after first?
It depends on the audience if I am doing good or not, I imagine regardless people would eventually get tired of me and I would be sent to live on Monster Island and get bossed around by Godzilla and Rodan.
You've decided to write a musical. What's it about and who's the star?
Well it is more my brother's dream then mine, but I do think it would be a hell of a musical…..HOBOPOLIS! The Hobo Opera! Staring Cal Rampton as J.G. Pennypacker with Bea Arthur as the alluring Hobo Queen.
What's your favorite board game? Why do you like it?
It's not really a board game, but I like playing surrealist games. Come play sometime and you'll see why :)
Everyone likes at least one cheesy/crappy song that totally kills their cred. What's yours?
Despite the fact that I have dropped in many peoples estimation for enjoying the occasional Madonna song, my cheesy crappy song of choice has got to be "We Built This City (On Rock and Roll) by Jefferson Starship" I love that song!
The standard touring vehicle is always a beat-up van. What has been the worst/weirdest method of conveyance you've had to use on a tour?
I once had a friend try and talk me into going on a handcart pioneer trek from nowhere to nowhere. I declined. Oh and the horrid puddle jumper commuter plane from Chicago to Detroit at 3:30 in the morning
Will it ever truly be possible to "rock the vote", or will apathy, indifference and laziness always triumph over activism?
I'm not sure if I should care that much about 'rockin the vote' I feel too old for that slogan now and frankly all the people young enough to fit into that demographic keep turning out to be scary right wing republican nut jobs and I'd rather they didn't rock anything.
You want to cry? I'll give you something to cry about. What would you like to cry about?
Sure, I could use a good cry. I really haven't done it in a while. I feel pretty numb most of the time. Physical pain doesn't usually do it to me unless it comes along with something else, I'd rather not cry about the something else again. I suppose if I could just have a good girly menstrual cry that would work for me.
If you could watch one historical event re-enacted by a cast of chimpanzees, which one would it be, and why?
I feel like I should say the civil war, but I am thinking a more pleasurable experience for me would be a party at the height of Andy Warhol's Factory in NYC. Just imagine the surly Lou Reed chimp.
How long after an unopened gallon of milk's "use-by" date has passed would you be willing to use it?
Until it tastes bad to me. Mostly I drink rice milk and it always tastes kind of bad.
What is the most unusual item you've thrown up on/in?
I was at a house that was being remodeled and I found the bathroom and I puked, but then I thought it would be a keen idea to go and look around at the unfinished part of the house and I ended up in the basement somewhere and I puked into a hole in the floor that I decided might be some kind of drain.
Do you prefer the term "underwear" or "underpants"? What does that say about you?
I am all about the underpants. That is after all where you do or not to put them so it seems fitting, I also like saying tighttie whities, boxers, panties, or Y fronts depending on the style and situation.
You've been asked to submit an anecdote or "tip" to a book called Everything I Need to Know About Life I Learned On Tour With My Band. What do you tell them?
I don't have a band nor do I tour with them, but I have gone on a road trip or two in my time. Lesson: keep your dick clean and your stick on the ice!
What basic freedoms are you prepared to give up in exchange for you and your family's safety?
I don't fucking know there are just too many variables in that question.
Due to a breakthrough in technology, it's possible to learn any skill, no matter how complex, pretty much instantly, by uploading the information directly into your brain (yes, like in The Matrix). Unfortunately, you can only do it once. What skill would you learn, and why?
Lame answer…zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance…actual answer…humm definitely awesome skills with my hands and something really useful.
A long-lost possession has turned up on EBay, and you're prepared to pay much more than it's worth just to finally get it back. What is it? Why is it worth so much to you?
The 'Mr. Merlin' metal lunch box and thermos that my mom gave away!
Right this very second, what are you most looking forward to, and why?
Taking a NAP! It is hot as hell and I am tired as fuck (sadly not from fucking) but luck be a lady, due to HVAC issues my job is closing today at noon and will not re-open until Wednesday [Happy Happy Joy JOY! Happy Happy Joy JOY! Happy Happy Joy JOY, JOY!]
Currently listening:
Artifact
By Sound Tribe Sector 9
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Wednesday, June 06, 2007
More coming about my Campaign Slogan
Current mood: sleepy
Callously stolen from the defunct e-zine 'Splendid' POINTLESS QUESTIONS originally answered by NOFX's El Hefe
1. What is your least favorite article of clothing, and why?
Right now shirts because someone out there seems to think that fat girls are wide not long so all the shirts I try on don't even cover my navel, WHAT THE FUCK?!
2. What's so funny about peace, love and understanding?
That so many douche bags talk about it, but they don't take any fucking action and that there are plenty of people out there preaching a doctrine allegedly based on peace, love, and understanding and they are the first one to show up on the front lines and kick you when you are down, again… WHAT THE FUCK?!
3. If you could remove 20ccs of fat from one part of your body and inject it into another, where would the fat come from/go to?
Humm…being a Hungarian I have no ass, but I am not really that interested in putting fat in my ass, I really have to think about this one…maybe from someplace weird like under my arm and inject it into the top of my foot? Geeze I dunno.
4. What three essential accessories would be in your dream tour van/vehicle?
A fucking great sound system, zub-zero air-conditioning, and something crazy like an endless pool or a monkey butler.
5. Which is more frightening: a venue full of people who don't like your music, or a room full of two-year-olds? Why?
I don't have a band, but I have been involved in shows of one kind or another and I have also already been in a room full of two-year-olds. Based on how much of a total people pleaser I am I have to choose the two-year-olds they can make a pretty good audience, they enjoy repeats, the poop isn't that big of a deal, and sooner or later they want a snack and to take a nap.
6. Name three activities that would be more interesting/entertaining/enjoyable with the addition of monkeys.
Karaoke, reality television (except for Survivor), and strip clubs.
7. What's the best venue you've ever played? What's the worst? Why?
I've answered this previously and since I am not in a band I don't have much to say. I can say that the black box theater at SLCC South campus was the worst to work on a show in and the theater at Westminster was the best, it's cat walk is fucking swank…I could have lived up there.
8. What was the last thing you watched on television? How did you like it?
CSI, it was the original one so I enjoyed it as usual and it was a particularly good episode, season finale season 3 I think.
9. Describe your dream vacation.
Eating fresh octopus in Korea at an open air fish market and then traveling all over the world, I think I elaborate on this in other previous blogs, if not then it is sure to come up when I get back to the topic of my breasts, etc.
10. Does everyone need to own a computer? Why or why not?
I don't care, they should have access if they want it, but who am I to tell the world that every-fucking-body needs a computer or not… "Who's the boss? Tony Danza? I don't think so!"
11. What activities (or whatever) are currently illegal, but in your opinion shouldn't be? What activities *are* legal, but should be outlawed?
Humm, another head scratcher, I am so uncomfortable with authority that I'd rather just avoid it…I suppose that reform on immigration laws and fair wages would be nice, sorting out the whole equal rights thing wouldn't hurt either…things to be outlawed: Metallica, any beverage that looks too much like piss or any other bodily fluid (blood can be debated, what with the whole blue to red business, also in that case it is more of a viscosity issue), and Helen Hunt!
12. Who should be the leader of the free world?
I dunno, I think Steve Martin might do an alright job. Maybe someone like Jello Biafra or Henry Rollins as advisers and Steven Colbert and Jon Stewart for good measure.
13. You have an eight-hour trip to your next gig. You're not driving, and you're not sleepy. You have the option of reading a book, listening to an album, watching a movie or playing a video game. Which do you choose? And what is the book/album/movie/game in question?
I get car sick SO easily! I would have to be listening to an album…my ultimate road trip music…old R.E.M. like Reckoning or Dead Letter Office, definitely something by Art Pepper…Smack Up, GOMEZ…Liquid Skin, if I could I'd probably just listen to my favorite Swedish lounge radio, almost enough zen that I could find my way to getting sleepy, ahh nothing like a good road nap (it's a skill I'd like to perfect).
14. What was the best live rock show you ever saw?
Top three, in chronological order…BLUR at St. Andrews Hall in Detroit, GOMEZ especially the show at DV8, and George Clinton and Parliament Funkadellic…they played for fucking 5 hours it was amazing!
15. Scientists have suggested that trainspotting (the hobby of obsessively traveling rail lines, watching trains, cataloging engine numbers, etc.) is a form of autism. What other so-called "hobbies" might actually be deep-seated psychological disorders?
Most if not everything I do…and if it is not something that I do then it is something that I am inexplicably attracted to like enigmas and sociopaths.
16. You're in an elevator with Mariah Carey, Marilyn Manson and George W. Bush. The elevator becomes trapped between floors. What happens next?
A keg appears and we start playing quarters.
17. You've been given the opportunity to play -- all expenses paid -- in a foreign country that bands don't normally get to visit. You get to pick the country. Where do you go?
Umm to make art…because again I'm not in a band, but these are better questions then any other random place on the internet…I'd want to go to CUBA!
18. What food item do you always eat, even though you shouldn't? And why shouldn't you be eating it?
It changes depending on a lot of things…and anything that I found on the floor…because I found it on the floor.
19. Why are frogs amusing?
Been over this before, see picture [now deleted] or previous blog for additional details.
20. Your favorite broken-up band is going to reunite for one show only at the venue of your choice (yes, we know this is implausible. Who cares?). Who's the band, and what's the venue?
Does this include resurrecting the dead? If so I would love to see Morphine, if not Soul Coughing, both shows at the place that is now Halo back when it was an awesome all ages punk dive.
21. Is the Internet destroying the English language?
Could be? I'd say more likely the text message and a need for speed has its hand in the mix, then just general dinkyness.
22. Several US states have adopted "three strikes and you're out" laws, which basically mean that after you're found guilty of three felonies, you're imprisoned for life. How do you feel about that? Is it effective lawmaking, or needlessly harsh?
Nothing like wasting money, I dunno shit like this gets me really agitated because I'd rather not even have to answer that question. If the funding and support that goes into the prison system was applied to community outreach and education programs we might not need so fucking much aggressive control money to keep the frightened upper middle class comfortable in their SUV's when they drive downtown! I know that I am over simplifying , but this really gets my hackles up.
Currently reading:
Tuesday
By David Wiesner
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Saturday, June 09, 2007
Living the high life.
Current mood:crapulent
Should I be counting at this point…yes folks it's true we are approaching an epoch almost a year of no *hoo hoo* in my life self inflicted or otherwise.
"We're not sure how long she has been in there, but our sources tell us that she has been wallowing in her own crapulence for almost 219 days, close friends say that is one of her longest crapulence benders coming just days after she was scheduled to release her new campaign slogan…"
"Her publicist refuses to comment, but the news networks are reporting that someone close to her has leaked the slogan and we here at CNN will be the first to reveal it… 'Fuck till I'm Thin'…there you have it folks, we expect to see that catch on faster then 'where's the beef'…"
I like breasts; I like my breasts they are kind of like soft hams. Man do some days just suck.
Currently playing:
Law & Order: Criminal Intent
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Monday, June 11, 2007
Who was your last quality waste of time
Current mood: lonely
Picked up from GT 'who was your last'
Blogged because I don't really post bulletins.
Body: Rule #1:
If you open this you GOTTA take it.(Or leave it, I don't care)
Rule # 2:
You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone
messages you and asks (Sure, fine, whatever, no one cares anyway, boo hoo hoo)
Rule #3:
Only answer True or False (Brake the rules, subvert the dominant paradigm, or don't)
Q: Kissed someone on your top friends?: TRUE
Q: Been arrested?: FALSE
Q: Kissed someone you didn't like? TRUE
Q: You like someone?: I'm trying.
Q: Held a snake?: TRUE
Q: Been suspended from school?: FALSE
Q: Been fired from a job?: Sort of.
Q: Sang karaoke?: TRUE
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?: TRUE
Q: Laughed until you started crying?: TRUE
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue? TRUE
Q: Kissed in the rain?: I wish.
Q: Sang in the shower?: TRUE
Q: Sat on a roof top?: FALSE
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?: FALSE
Q. Broken a bone?: FALSE
Q: Shaved your head?: FALSE
Q: Played a prank on someone?: TRUE
Q: Had/have a gym membership?: TRUE
Q: Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry?: FALSE
Q: Shot a gun?: TRUE
Q: Donated Blood?: FALSE
Q: Had your heart broken?: TRUE
Q: Broken someone's heart?: I dunno.
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LAST PERSON....
1. You hung out with? Merlot
2. last person you texted? Merlot
3. last person you were in a car with? Merlot
4. Went to the movies with? Natti
5. Went to the mall with? I don't remember that last time I went to a mall
6. You talked to on the phone?: D
7. Made you laugh?: Merlot
8. You hugged?: Firm Handshake
9. You cried with? Dr. Joe
WOULD YOU RATHER...?
1. Love or be loved? Love AND be loved.
2. Be serious or be funny?: Silly, kooky, funny.
3. Drink whole or skim milk? Rice Milk
4. Die in a fire or get shot?: Tea and Cake?
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ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...
1. Sun or moon?: MOON
2. Winter or Fall?: FALL
3. Left or right?: LEFT
4. Sunny or rainy?: RAINY
6. Where do you live? SALT LAKE CITY
8. Do you want to get married?: I dunno.
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: TWRIL
10. Do You Cook? Sometimes.
11. Current mood?: Lonely and Disoriented.
IN THE LAST 72 HOURS HAVE YOU...
1. Kissed someone?: NO
2. Sang?: YES
3. Been hugged?: YES
4. Cried? Only from laughing.
5. Like someone you can't have? Kind of.
Repost this as, "who was your last" (or don't)
Currently reading:
One Fish Two Fish Red Fish Blue Fish (I Can Read It All by Myself Beginner Books)
By Dr. Seuss
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Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Don't LIE this is a Quality Waste of Time
Current mood:Fuck it, Kill it--There are crumbs on my desk.
Blissfully stolen from GT (my new ether best friend because he posts something like this almost everyday)
Don't Lie Survey
EIGHT Lasts
1. Last cigarette: at Merlots party
2. Last beverage: Water
3. Last phone call: Natti
4. Last text message: Natti
5. Last CD played: Gomez-Split the Difference
6. Last bubble bath: a few months ago.
7. Last time you cried: Sunday, but only from laughing so hard.
8. Last meal: PB&J and orange slices
EIGHT Have You's
1. Have you ever dated someone twice? Kinda, but not really.
2. Have you ever been cheated on? I don't know.
4. Have you ever kissed someone & regretted it? YES!
5. Have you ever fallen in love? yes
6. Have you ever lost someone? yes
7. Have you ever been depressed? Whatdaya think?! (ooch and sarcastic too)
8. Have you ever been drunk and thrown up? Yes, yes I have.
Name SIX things you did in the past three days
1. Dicked around on Myspace
2. Went to CPR&AED Training
3. Saw a local Comedy Show
4. Watched the Tony Awards
5. Went swimming
6. Hung around with Merlot
List THREE people you can tell pretty much anything to
1. Merlot
2. D
3. Dr. Joe
List THREE favorite colors
1. ORANGE
2. red
3. yellow
List TWO things you want to do before you die
1.) Travel all over the world
2.) Fuck A LOT!
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF……
1. Bush? Tasty
2. Gay Marriage? Is a civil right
4. Straight, Gay, Bi? I don't fucking know, that may be part of my problem.
5. Do you have a crush? Sort of…
6. Who is the best hugger that you know? Michelle and my other Monday night friends
7. Do you believe in love at first sight? No/yes/kind of
8. Is there something you want to tell someone? Probably
9. What brand of shirt are you wearing? I dunno I bought it at a thrift store and I am too lazy to look at the tag while I am wearing it.
10. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? YES!
11. Do you have a "thing" for anyone on your top friend? Used to, kinda
12.HOW MANY people on your top friends? 24
13. How many kids do you want to have? I used to have 189 and that was pretty much enough for me. I am excited about being a crazy aunt.
14. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Crazy, but good.
15. Do you wanna change your name? Nah, I'm good with what I've got.
16. What did you do for your last birthday? Is it bad to say I don't remember…and not in that woo hoo fun 'I don't remember' kind of way
17. What time did you wake up today? 6:15AM
18. What were you doing at midnight last night? Trying to sleep.
19. Name something you CANNOT wait to do: Fuck it and Kill it, and finishing moving into my new place.
20. Last time you saw your dad? This morning, he made me the PB&J Sandie
21. What is one thing you wish you could change about yourself: loathing
22. Which hand do you like better? left
23. What are you listening to right now? Swedish Lounge Radio
24. Have you ever talked to Tom? I have talked to people named Tom
25. Have you ever donated money to a good cause? I think.
26. Have you ever talked about someone behind their back? YES because I am a BIG jerk!
27. Least favorite month? Depends, last year April was really shitty, and I'm not a big fan of extra hot days, but my birthday is in August so I can't hate that month, maybe July just for the temp and pomp and circumstance around pie in ear day.
28. What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from anyone? A t-shirt from my Dad because I am still living out of a suitcase kind of.
29. Who's getting on your nerves right now? A Lot of people.
30. Most visited webpage? Marriott Library homepage and Juxtapoz
31. Would you help your best friend fight if he/she is losing? Maybe, depends on what the fight is about, I am pretty much a pacifist, but I would stand there and take the blows for them.
32. Coke or Pepsi? COKE
33. What's the worst day of your life? A bunch of times last year
34. Have you kissed or been kissed by anyone in the past week? NO
35. Do you disagree with a lot of things going on in the world? YES!
If you answered honestly to all these, repost as:
Don't Lie Survey (or don't, like I said I don't care)
Currently reading:
From Hell
By Alan Moore
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